Wednesday, July 8, 2009

some gossip

The last post reminds me of a wedding invitation I ignored once. I was being engineered.

She was a friend, we met a few times, then it was all electronic - emails and occasional chats. One day she called and suggested to meet, so we went to shoot some pool, after not seeing her for over a year and not that we really cared. I was given an invitation to her wedding.
When wedding day came (Aug/Sept last year), I had all the outfit ready in my car, but while playing photons' (light) DJ it became apparent that I'm being engineered into her project - her perfect wedding.
It's not a coincidence, but this girl and the one from the last post, are graduates of the same Technion faculty and work in the same major software company.
Later I came across another person who was "kinda friends" with that girl, and just before the wedding she appeared out of the blue, so friendly, urgently had fun together and handed the invitation.
Looking at her facebook wedding images, you can't say anything but perfect. This girl knows now to get things done.

Monday, July 6, 2009

life by prescription

Many posts got written and deleted lately..

Here's a citation from a blog of someone:
"מתברר שכבר אז (לפני המון זמן, איזה חודש וחצי) ידעתי שיש דברים שאני לא מבינה. וצדקתי, אני באמת מרגישה שאני לא מבינה בזה מספיק. לא מבינה את כל נבכי ונפתולי המוח הגברי, לא מבינה איך עובד שם המנגנון בתחומים האלה. למרות שאני מכירה את הטענה שבמוח הגברי יש רק סקס ואוכל, וכנראה שלחלק יש שם גם קצת כדורגל. לא מאמינה שזה נכון, יותר נכון מסרבת להאמין בכך שזה נכון, לא יכול להיות, בטוח יש משהו מעבר. חייב להיות.
וזה נושא שנטחן כבר עד דק, מיליון פעמים, עם כל מי שאפשר, וכל פעם מחדש עולות השאלות, וכל פעם מחדש מגיעות התשובות, וכל פעם מחדש בעצם נותרים עם כל אותם סימני שאלה, ואין מסקנות חד-משמעיות.

אני יכולה למצוא אלגוריתם לכל בעייה כמעט, לנסח אלגוריתם מדוייק כמעט לכל דבר. אבל את האלגוריתם של איך להתחיל מערכת יחסים עוד לא הצלחתי לפענח, לא הצלחתי לעלות על זה. חשבתי שהבנתי קצת, עדיין נראה לי שאני מבינה משהו, אבל בטוח לא מספיק. יש שם עוד הרבה מידע שצריך לפצח. אז אולי מישהו מכם מוכן לעזור לאנשים שכמוני. לעזאזל, אני ממדעי המחשב, אני צריכה אלגוריתם, אני צריכה הוראות ברורות מה צריך לעשות. אני כולי מבולבלת מכל העניין הזה. חוסר הודאות שבשלבים האלה בעייתי בשביל אנשים כמוני. אם אפשר לתרום לנו כמה חוקים וכללים שנוכל להיעזר בהם, לומר מה העקרונות המנחים, לנסח כמה משפטים או לפחות איזה למה. שתבינו, אפילו לבשל אני מבשלת רק מספרים, האלתור בתחומים שאני לא מבינה בהם ממני והלאה, אני לא לוקחת סיכונים מיותרים."
So characteristic to Technion graduates. Trying to engineer everything in life... Like people are nothing but assemblies of variables (height, age, ... , cup size, correlation degree of face with icons in magazines / TV).. And like life is nothing but classes of interactions - for successful just give the right input as function of the parameters and you're fine. It works perfectly in many aspects of life (studies, work, doing taxes, cooking, doing laundry) but as the quoted passage above demonstrates, not in everything.
Life is random. It's chaotic, in many ways. We are not isolated objects, there's an infinite number of factors to consider. While you're doing every possible calculation to succeed, your partner might be upset about something, busy, distracted, or you might have just met him at the wrong time. You might be perfect for each other, but there's also a possibility that your partner decides to give up, making a mistake. This is also possible. There's always uncertainty to live with, that's what makes life interesting. Being a control freak is not going to lead to good results.



(deezer have stopped providing embeddable player code so I actually have to hack their stuff to still embed things here)

Saturday, May 30, 2009

NYC 2009

The flight there was very easy - I got a seat next to the emergency exit. The sky was clear most of the time, and it was great to see Gibraltar (or Portugal), and later Canada's snowy mountains from so high up.




New York city, has changed considerably since two years ago. The economic crisis hasn't passed by Manhattan either. Many people are trying to rip each other off.

Visited Brooklyn College, that's a graduation ceremony. Humble labs, small departments. Colleges don't match Columbia, Technion or NYU, by definition





Every visit must include Manhattan. This year they've blocked some of Broadway and put many beach chairs so that the croud could demonstratively just sit there.


This is Golda Meir square, Broadway.





Another thing that's new is the bike lanes. Crazy Manhattan bikers are getting attention.





Away from the loud city, I went for a horseback riding lesson. First time riding, loved it.




A walk along the shore, lots of bird species. The shore is heavily polluted, you need to get really away from the shore to escape the dreadful stench, a mixture of machine oil, garbage and sewer. It's no fun to photograph fast birds with a sluggish SLR-like camera, but here's a nice result. Guess what this bird is doing...
Here's a hint:

The fun part is over, now for business. The whole trip's purpose is to present my research at the CLEO conference at Baltimore. I have a train there tomorrow early morning; I will meet my competitors, an Italo-Canadian team of 4 people. My presentation is on Thursday.

Monday, May 18, 2009

The race

The problem with this blog is that the most exciting things about my life - I can't share them here because of many reasons. This renders the blog to sheer boredom sometimes.

I'm actually a bit drunk... Stayed at work drumming the keyboard for my research, till midnight. I am going to present my work at a major Optics conference in the US, at the end of this month. It's amazing how my fingers still type without me even having to tell them what to do, I just think of what I want to appear on the screen and it does. I am barely aware of my fingers working.

So, it's like this.
When you're in the academy (MSc or PhD student, postdoc or a faculty member), you are  supposedly this smart guy who has knowledge at the frontier level of his area. You are paid scholarship (if you're a good student), and salary (if you're faculty or postdoc), and you're allowed to make extra money by teaching.
For instance, I teach a physics laboratory course, I have 11 students. I get a scholarship and the tuition is paid for me by the institution. In total, I get less than half the salary I used to get while I was engineer in the high-tech industry. The money comes from science foundations, governments. They give money to institutions and scientists, knowing that this investment doesn't pay back (not directly and not neccessarily to them).

The purpose. It's innovation in science.  Whatever that is new, and has scientific value.  I am often asked, what is this good for, what you are researching? Well, in my case there's plenty of potential uses. But many other scientists are working on themes / projects which have no commercial use at all, - from astrophysics to elementary particles (this includes vast armies of physicists employed on the collider, for instance).
  Most of the scientists work for very low pay, comparing to how their capabilities would have been rewarded in the industry. There are rare cases of people who work with / for companies, or own small companies. Often you can see a frontier scientist driving a very humble car. Maybe out of ideology but still...
  Fially, the result is advancement in research, understanding of Nature by Humanity, if you want. The immediate reward is articles, publications. When you publish your work, it relies on prior works in this field, yours or mostly other authors. So you cite their works in yours. The more your work get cited by others, this indicates your publication's importance.  Publishing (for physicists) can be done in several journals, the most prestigious of which is Nature. Then there's Science, and Physical Review Letters (PRL).
  Other rewards are prizes. Next to the title that goes along with it (such as the most recognized one, Nobel prize) there's also a very nice sum of money. There's can be also many trips abroad sometimes on a monthly basis, for heads of research teams. As a beginner, I got my first "free" trip abroad within half a year "on the job". The purpose is collaboration, presenting your work at a conference, giving seminars, etc.

  I was supposed to "score" a PRL a month ago but eventually had to publish in a less-important journal, because I had to keep ahead of another team doing something very similar to my project, in another system. It's like playing the same song, on another instrument. Once they play it first, my play won't be considered new any more.
  They scored a PRL, but I went for a less important journal and published 1 month earlier, because it has faster acceptance procedures. Now the race is on for the experimental part.

Saturday, May 16, 2009

eurovision

I probably haven't been slapped enough time by life's cruelties yet, if I actually get touched by this song.


Leaders know there's many others ways. There's enough land and water for everyone. The catch is that the chosen individuals who are expected to lead us to the supposed peace and prosperity, often enjoy playing power games instead. Who needs peace when we can enjoy war?

Thursday, April 30, 2009

Addicted to oil

If Oil is an addiction, then the Mideast oil-rich countries and Russia are drug barons, while US, Europe and the rest of the world are addicted bitches and wasted junkies.

  Having oil is like having some rich daddy who will always give you more money than you want. It's like being born Paris Hilton, you can forget about everyday problems and keep yourself from getting bored by making parties (well, wars - in case of arabs) around the world. The only thing you need to worry about is oil prices; you must keep the world addicted.
  Israel in particular, has a problem with the drug baron, since baron doesn't like us and once in a while pays some thugs who beat us up. We can build walls, we can spend a fortune and design a superfly anti-rocket protection system. We can also go out with tanks and jets and troops and make devastating damage, to some thugs. But the barons are unreachable, and they keep getting masses of money from our addicted friends.
  Can we replace oil-consuming cars with electric ones? I was mailed this presentation once, which quite literally contains evidence that some "dark forces" are methodically killing the electric car.
  Go out to wars, lose troops and money, and return to almost the same situation. Invent an electric car, and you've finished the drug lords.

Shai Agassi speaks in Washington, DC.  The video opens with an introduction; impressive guy.





This one man is more than the greatest army. He has the potential to even the score with the greedy bastards and put them where they belong. If electric cars appear at 10% tax, I'll be the first to buy.

Happy Independence Day, Israel.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Slam thoughts

analogous to slam poetry...
סיימת טכניון, את העינוי הארוך על כל המשתמע, עכשיו יש לך את התואר ואת הג'וב בהייטק, הרכב הצמוד, עכשיו איפה הסטייק העבה שלך... כולם התפזרו, כל החבורה, כל אחד לדרכו. המפגשים האקראיים והשטויות בפייסבוק זה כבר לא זה, לא דומה בכלל ללילות הלבנים בחוות המחשבים על תרגילי בית רטובים, לא לצהרי יום ד' על הדשא של אולמן
השיגרה טסה כמו רכבת מהירה ובלתי ניתנת לעצירה. מלא כסף זורם עכשיו. טיול בחו"ל, קפיצת באנג'י, מלא קניות. מכשיר ניווט לוויני חדש, לפטופ, ועוד מלא שיט שאין בו ממש צורך. מדי פעם עוד הזמנה לחתונה או לברית, והשאלה המעיקה הזאת חוזרת - איפה עוד להכיר?                      מיאוס מוחלט מהאינטרנט המשחית. העולם נראה פתאום כמו איזה משחק כסאות מוזיקלי, - לזהות ולתפוס זריז את ההזדמנות שלך בציפורניים וחלילה לא לעזוב, אחרת נשארים לבד כי אנחנו לעולם לא נתפשר.
צניחה חפשית, קורס צילום, ריקודים סלונים. עמוק בפנים מבשילה מן הכרה שהגעת לתחנה הלפני אחרונה של החיים, שמה שנשאר זה הג'ובים האלה; התגמול גלובלי, עבוד כפי יכולתך, חיה את מה שנשאר.  מדי יום לחזור לדירה השוממת, להיתקע מול עוד מסך, עם שלט או עם מקלדת
?לא יכול להיות. מה עוד, מה הלאה? תואר שני? מה אחר כך 

 אלה רק ההתרשמויות שלי מהחיים של הסובבים אותי. אני לא בודד, נהנה מהחיים*